heartbreak . .

I can't be tough, I can't be strong, but with you, it's not like that at all

there's a girl, who give a shits

behind this wall, you just walk through it  . . . 

recently, one of my bestie just when through a heartbreak, from a guy that I barely know about him nor I've never met him before. which means that I have absolutely and only about 5% rights to talk about him errr. that's not the point here really. so here how's the story  . . 

there was this one guy, he's kinda famous, well yeah model. he said that he like her or love her urghh I'm a forgetful person we better skip that. he even asked her to be his girlfriend. which she didn't give any answer coz her parents wouldn't allow her. we'll he's a model and you know how parents think about that kinda of lifestyle and bla bla bla. 

everything went well between them *forgive me for the past and present tense used, malas nak pikior. anyway, all of sudden he changed. and she find out that he's falling for a girl and even use her pic as his dp. I mean like seriously bro? you tell a girl 'hey I love you' like for a month and then you fall for another after a MONTH?? sorry A MONTH??? 30 DAYS?? 

yeah you don't have a relationship but you told her you love her, you gave her hopes, then you fall for another girl, really? it's that easy huh? you can come and go as you wish? dulu time sayang kat dia jauh mana pn sanggup dtg even jumpa sekejap pn takpa. but now? cepat nya berubah bro. feelings are not just words that you can go around tell everyone about it and pretend like nothing happen. even worst, you start it first. 

I don't know how she feel really coz girls they seems strong on the outside but they fall asleep with tears at night. but hey I've been there before. trust me when I say 'if you fall for someone damn so hard that you'll cry you heart out to know that he's not'. or at least not any more. but I don't blame him entirely. he didn't say 'hey you must fall for me damn so heart that you would cry me a sea'. I did  that on my own and I'm the only one to be blame for what I did. 

to my beloved girl,

be strong okay. just to make you feel better or it might not help you at all, he choose that girl over you?? he's lost not yours. there's plenty fish in the sea. why waste those precious tears and time for someone who choose side dish over main dish huh? *pang!* kboiii love you babe 

when I love you means nothing but just meaningless words