april comes again ;P

my favorite month of the year. 

motip? 

sbab in this month ada burfday me and my lovely brother. 

and as for this week my mother kata balik umah okay! 

and bermula la journey yang tidak dirancang sama skli. 

next post ya!

you're getting worst :(

here i thought you're getting better but hey i guest i'm wrong after all. you're getting worst. i want to be like others but seriously after today, i would never could do that. each and every single i watched you from far or near. i pray from the bottom of my heart that you'll changed. but what i got is disappointment. how my heart goes really down to see you being yourself. it is true when people say that let them love you for who you are not what they want you to be. but if you're a jerk? how would they love you? but i guess my opinion doesn't matter at all. you keep being yourself and people still love you for being that 'one piece' . i have no idea what they have in my mind. or what you yourself have in your mind. i never have and never will suit in that life. and i'm glad i didn't. i'm so glad i didn't. if being like you is all what it takes to be famous, being notice and love by everyone here in 'this part of the world of famous and glamorous' , you know what? thanks but i prefer it best to live in my pathetic, invisible and boring yet simple life coz it didn't worth the risk to lose my pride and those who love me for being simple and nothing of that kind of life you lead to. 


but i'll always stand next to you no matter through hard and good times.
coz i love you and care for you.

guys in my pathetic life.

my dad and my two lovely brother. and my friends. the one? none.

my girl friends are all not available. if they are, tons of guys will be lining up to fill the empty seat. everyone normal would wanted to have someone special. including me. but single doesn’t keep you away from track. i have my father to go shopping or hang out with, talking about anything and he’ll be listening. willing or forced to? i’m not sure about that. i can hold his hand and it feel so save to walk with him. washing car together, watching television our favorite channel axn or even interrupt him while his reading newspaper outside. sorry ayah. i just love to do so. ;P

i also have two brothers the one that live with me here back at home and the other one who live in jb. before, my first brother used to bring me out to watch movies or grab some meals. he’ll be one of the first person to watch newly movies. he’ll make a good movie reviewer that’s for sure. now? he’s so busy working till late at night and going out with his friends or car team here and there. no time for me along? Isk3. as for my second brother, he rarely come back. fyi. both of my brother are already married. with their work. how I wish they are married coz I want niece and nephew so much. he come back for important event or if he got work to do somewhere in kl. he always treat me with ice cream or snacks that I adore so much but somehow being forbid in my house. thanks abang dieq. my mom really hate junk food. She even called it as ‘ta*k ayam’ to show her hatred. but I used to eat it even in front of her and she’ll give me a lecture about health and the important of nutritious.

back to the story. what I adore about this two guys anyway? two words. their car. I really loved their car. from the model, the way they modified their car. it’s amazing. my first brother modified the front light, reverse alarm and other stuff that I can’t name it in the exact name. well I adore it but never actually know how to call it. my second brother like the evo sound a lot. he even make an open rooftop for his car. A small open rooftop for sure. I’m bad am i? so make this clear brothers. modify my car okay? I want it to be way awesome okay. for the bill? it’s yours. thank you.

I love my dad and brothers much that I don’t really need the fourth guy for now.

And I don’t care if they love me back or not.

Coz they are everything I ever have.

And I don’t want to lose them.

Love forever okay!

L.O.V.E. 

bf ohh bf !

boyfriend. is it really necessary for someone to have a special boyfriend or girlfriend by their side? recently, so many people keep asking me about this thing. question like do you have anyone special yet? why don’t you find one? urghhh. it’s tiring okay. i repeat SO BORED AND LAME. that would make things clear isn’t? i hope so. other girl might have this fascinating dream about their date and charming boyfriend. so what? do i care? fyi, i don’t. it’s not like i have this grudge towards guys or something, i just love the way i am right now. single. the word that might scared for some people out there. and the fact that i don’t find anyone that can handle me as the invisible girl good enough. ;P

being single is good you know. for the one who have the courage of not having someone to be called special one, going out for dates and celebrating important event with someone special. being single just keep you away from the trouble of thinking about him or her all the time. scared that they might have someone else other than you. dream about them. or worst, texting and calling 24 hours. sound like a bodyguard. but it is the truth. i don’t want to keep worrying about this thing now. i’ll have wrinkles sooner that I suppose too.

i didn’t say that having someone special is a big trouble. it worth all the pain to have someone to share your problem with, to spend time together, to dream about at night, and to smile when talking about them. i’ve seen that a lot. it’s pretty scary you know. but i enjoy watching though.

as for me i’ll stay the way i am, at least for now. watching other got into a cat fight with their love, facing betrayal, cried their heart out make me realize that i’m not ready for it. eventhough i’m tired with the questionnaire but i’ll keep answering with the same thing again and again. because you know what? i’m not that strong to have my heart being tear apart. i just not strong enough to pick up my scattered heart and put it back in it’s place. and most important of all, i’m not worthy for anyone in this planet okay. what i got is enough for me. my friends is everything i needed for now.

my campus life ;P

ari ni nurul horvejkul xbtul lg. sbab apa sy bwat bnda yg xspatut nya d'lkukan ptg td. tgh mnatap fb nihh trgat plak kt mnusia seorang ni. dh slpas m'stalker fb dan blog nya as usuall la kn. tidak d'lupa kn comment yg mngarut2. maka sy pn nk kata cmni "awak awak, nk ikut awk jgak aci x?" hahaha. kesengalan melanda ye. mehh tgok mnusia2 yg sudi mnemani hari2 borink sy sbgai the invisible girl of the world. muahaha.

hah. knal x cpa manusia d'atas ni. nma glamour Reen R. nma pjg skit Reen Rahman. nk lg pjg? Hasreenajwa. ntah btul ke tidak ejaan nya tuh. klu slah ampun ye. mnusia ni la yg d'cri klu tringin nk g mkn mcd tp xda org nk tman. nk kluar bwat jaat dia ni jgak la jd mgsa nk tman. maap la ye mngajar bnda bkn2. nk blik dri campus sorg2, nk lpak u-cafe la, hameed dgn roti bom nya yg mmg kebomm dy ni la jgak la yg d'seret. lpak dpn swimming pool tnp trjun k'dlm nya smpai nyamuk2 naik jeles tgok ktrg dating. klu tgh kusut kpla sbab lma xcuci pn cri dy jgak sruh dgr bebelan2 yg ntah ppa tu kn. maap lah ye cik reen. slgi awk dduk perdana slgi tu la nk m'nyemak dlm hidup awk. 

mak cik ni cpa plak? nih la top model thun lpas Reen H. thun ni? xthu lg ehh. hahaha. nma pjg skit Hazrina Hamidi. ada org tny npa x pggil HH? tny dy ehh. no 017-544 tkan2 xdpat. please try later okay. mgsa yg sllu d'cubit pipi nya yg tembam itu. kihkihkih. slah dy ehh. org ckap bwat donno je. pk apa pn xthu. d'awang2 an je m'mjg. jd maap la ye whai pipi. hohoho. m.cik ni la sllu jd mgsa pau Cadbury kt u-cafe tuhh. hobby ttap dy ni ska ambk gmbr. dan scra tidak lgsg nurul tlah d'iktiraf mnjdi photographer xb'tauliah skligus tumpang menyemak skli maka thsil la gmbr sprti d'ats ini. ske mnyemak dlm hidup m.cik ni. motip? ske tgok dy marah. wah3. jgn marah2 ea. nnt pipi kena cbit? nk? nak kn? hahahaha.

the nad zachary. muachh gitu. ni classmate nurul. mgsa2 sy jgak ni. sory la ye sbab myemak dlm hidup u. msih pjg lg waktu nya. smpai 2013. xlma tuhh pjam celik pjam celik hbis sudaa. b'kongsi stu minat yg sma iaitu KOREA. love KOREA. thanks ye nad bg pinjam cd he's beautiful. tgok b'ulang2 kli smpai nk muntah cd tu tgok mka nurul bru bg blik. jaat kn? muahahaha.

cpa mnusia comel lote sblah nurul ni? nma nya Reen jgak. tp Reen M. hahaha. nma penuh Syakirin Mukhtar. cik kak sorg ni mgsa sy jgak ehh. rmai noo mgsa ye. dgn kak ini la sy bw lari bb dy jauh2. maen fb dlm klas, lecturer hall, library oohh baik ekk nurul g library. smpai ke toi**t tu pn bw bb dy taw. dy ni b'baek atiey tlg anta nurul blik perdana sbab cian tgok nurul bwat mka seposen dpan dy. lg2 la pas blik klas mlm2. kamsammida Reen!! xtblas jsa anda ye. nnt nurul dh kya bg ferrari sbiji okay? hahaha.

motip? hahaha. mnusia pling kiri b'bju kmja mlm2 buta. nma dy acap. ashraf aris yg btul nya. pling thru dgn p.cik sorg ni. sbab dy lyan nurul m'bebel kt u-cafe siap perang psal cik proton inspira lg. timekasih bnyk2 skrg ni tdo pn dh mimpi cik inspira tuhh. xdpat mmg siap la nurul tlan mmat ni. apa yg mmat ni bwat smpai nurul thru? sggup nya dy dgr bebelan nurul, and sggup jgak dy dtg mlm2 buta nih dlm penat lelah nya ke sna ke mari. dh dtg cni jd photographer. bw ktrg ni g mcd plak. hntr blik lg. thanks ea acap. xda gmbar in person la. lma xnmpk mmat ni. apa cite jang? hahaha.

okay la. mlm dh larut. siang dh lma melabuh kn tirai. mta nihh smkin segar menaip aksara2 di hdpn lappy. msa utk tido ye. esk klas pg. pkl9 plak tuh. nk lg mnrik? smpai 1 tghri. 4jam ehh. xmngtuk plak kn. xbaek taw gipang miss. cian kt ktrg nihh xckup tdo. hahaha. poyos.

**gipang aka gila pangkat atau gila kuasa ye

nite babeyh ;P

msuk hospital :(

nma bdak comel ni auni athirah. dilahirkan pd 20 februari 2009. skrg ni dh dua thun. ritu bru je sronok2 celebrate burfday dy. nk d'jdi kn crta dy dmam, skit perut yg memulas2 *pham ye* muntah sgla bgai. smpai la d'tahan dlm ward kt ampang puteri. cian dy ehh. smpai xbley tdo pnya la skit. sbar ehh cyg. kuat taw. mst bgun blik lari2 cm biasa okay.

   

 

letih je mka dy. nma pn xckup tido kn. rehat ckup2 ea. smpai isolated msuk ward asing dr yg lain sbab tkut bjangkit. be strong okay. auni kuat. msti bley pny. makan ubat. dgr doktor ckap ehh. nnt bley main lari2 lg. pkai topeng. mkan kek bnyk2. kuar cpat ea.

 m.su cyg dy taw. cpat kluar ehh. kita maen sma2 lg. cian abg tuhh rindu nk maen dgn auni.