urggh sakit nya perut. sob sob sob. rasa cm nk cabut jap perut ni ltak tepi. mampu ke? hahaha. motip? tkda org nk layan nurul ckp sakit perut. smpai hati kn?? yela sapa la nurul ni. (",) org org yg nk d'jauhi nmpk nya smkin gemar mndekat kn diri. tolongla! jauh jauh skit boleh? saya tk ckup kuat. mkin lama mkin lemah. kesudahan nya keputusan yg tk sptut nya d'buat tlah pn d'ambil scara drastik. tpaksa okay. berat hati ni spa jela yg thu kn. hopefully kptsan tu tk la buat smpai nurul d'lupakan. betul ke tindakan nurul ni? 

you're getting worst :(

here i thought you're getting better but hey i guest i'm wrong after all. you're getting worst. i want to be like others but seriously after today, i would never could do that. each and every single i watched you from far or near. i pray from the bottom of my heart that you'll changed. but what i got is disappointment. how my heart goes really down to see you being yourself. it is true when people say that let them love you for who you are not what they want you to be. but if you're a jerk? how would they love you? but i guess my opinion doesn't matter at all. you keep being yourself and people still love you for being that 'one piece' . i have no idea what they have in my mind. or what you yourself have in your mind. i never have and never will suit in that life. and i'm glad i didn't. i'm so glad i didn't. if being like you is all what it takes to be famous, being notice and love by everyone here in 'this part of the world of famous and glamorous' , you know what? thanks but i prefer it best to live in my pathetic, invisible and boring yet simple life coz it didn't worth the risk to lose my pride and those who love me for being simple and nothing of that kind of life you lead to. 


but i'll always stand next to you no matter through hard and good times.
coz i love you and care for you.

the real me. the truth.

it actually take my whole gut to come to the truth. in front of him. no one knows how it feels. but i'm glad i have my friend there with me. at least. i'm scared. seriously. because people judge. and the way he act is kind off different than the way he used too. my friend say that i'm actually have been thinking too much. the truth is. i don't know. he says he's okay with it. but i feel like he's not. i hate being me because people will judge. somehow. you have to admit that. and most people judgement is negative. and to make it even worse. his friends actually come to us. real great. i feel like running away. thousand miles and never return. but i stay. i have no idea if i'm making a right choice. but i hate the choice i make. coz i'll keep wondering. do you like it or hate it. tell me please. if you like it. i'll be more than happy to know about it. but if you don't. please leave. and never looked back. coz it hurts.