bf ohh bf !

boyfriend. is it really necessary for someone to have a special boyfriend or girlfriend by their side? recently, so many people keep asking me about this thing. question like do you have anyone special yet? why don’t you find one? urghhh. it’s tiring okay. i repeat SO BORED AND LAME. that would make things clear isn’t? i hope so. other girl might have this fascinating dream about their date and charming boyfriend. so what? do i care? fyi, i don’t. it’s not like i have this grudge towards guys or something, i just love the way i am right now. single. the word that might scared for some people out there. and the fact that i don’t find anyone that can handle me as the invisible girl good enough. ;P

being single is good you know. for the one who have the courage of not having someone to be called special one, going out for dates and celebrating important event with someone special. being single just keep you away from the trouble of thinking about him or her all the time. scared that they might have someone else other than you. dream about them. or worst, texting and calling 24 hours. sound like a bodyguard. but it is the truth. i don’t want to keep worrying about this thing now. i’ll have wrinkles sooner that I suppose too.

i didn’t say that having someone special is a big trouble. it worth all the pain to have someone to share your problem with, to spend time together, to dream about at night, and to smile when talking about them. i’ve seen that a lot. it’s pretty scary you know. but i enjoy watching though.

as for me i’ll stay the way i am, at least for now. watching other got into a cat fight with their love, facing betrayal, cried their heart out make me realize that i’m not ready for it. eventhough i’m tired with the questionnaire but i’ll keep answering with the same thing again and again. because you know what? i’m not that strong to have my heart being tear apart. i just not strong enough to pick up my scattered heart and put it back in it’s place. and most important of all, i’m not worthy for anyone in this planet okay. what i got is enough for me. my friends is everything i needed for now.