i'm used to have you by myside.

i was so frustrated as you can see in my previous post. i cried a lot that night. too much that i suddenly fall asleep. then my phone rang. as usual right early in the morning. i wake up and started texting. at first,i was still in the sad mood that i reply it by sentence. he asked me to forget about my problem. and somehow we changed the topic. and slowly he makes me smile and laugh again. the fact that i actually forget how sad i am before this. or how nervous i am to go on with my life as usual. i make my first break away with my friends and got a bonus link for making it. the bonus thing. let me keep it for myself. in the evening we met. and i just can't stop smiling every single time we met each other. when we met in person. from far away or eye to eye. still i smiled. the best part of all. my second break away. but now. with you. i'm kind off anxious. what it'll be like. would it be fun. or will i end up get frustrated as my friends do. the answer is no. you are so nice. a little bit of annoying because you keep playing around with me. as usual i shall say. but the break away is awesome. i really enjoy it. i really appreciate it when a guy actually introduce me to his best buddies which somehow shows that i'm actually belong to his world. we climb up the rock together. u help me out by holding my hands tightly and wait till i get down safely before making your way. or should i say absolutely full of care. then you were doing this crazy stuff of yours.

 climbing up without safety belt. thing that is dangerous. and we climb up together. and i actually touched when you stopped as i can't make it anymore. the fact that you actually get down as fast as you can so that you can take your friend place and guard me to get down. when you're worried that i'll get hurt. and somehow i like it. and i'm used to it. used to texting with you all day long. waking you up from your sleep. seeing you every single gap between class.  IM'ing eventhough we're sitting at the same location. looking at your reaction every time i chat with you while you were checking mine. like that we're actually talking to each other while your friends were looking and keep ignoring them. i've just so used to have you by myside. when i'm happy. sad. moody. gloomy. crazy. and etc. so used to it and loving it that i'm worried sick that one day you'll leave me.