i'm everything i never wanted to be (;

*this picture got nothing to do with this post okay.

randomly this june i've been so out of mood, no appetite that's so serious i have to make new holes to my belt. how sad is that? growing up i've loose so many part of myself along the way and turn to be someone i'm not really proud with. so bad like an alien! *credit to kiah uncit (; my behavior, words i speak, attitude everything's just not something someone would be proud of. i wish to change, i really do. someone please hold my hands so i can be strong enough to do so? i'm glad i have friends all around me. that help me makes me feel less lonely. yeah feel so down at this moment i felt so alone. and someone seem to be a backstabber. i've lost everything on my life, and yet you still want to take away the last piece that didn't even sure belongs to me? well one thing to remember babe. what goes around comes around. eventhough i wouldn't be the one to do the same someone will. 

life please be nicer to me. just a little is that so much to ask?

a day of totally 'down' mood!

i've been through a lot of thing today. the first day of a new second long semester. i sleep pretty late last night but i've to wake up early today which was so tiring? my fault i know. went to msu for registration with my mentor but somehow it turned out my paper wasn't there and i have to pay fine. what? not that easy. i argued it back with admin department. guess what i win! yeay! *like a kid receiving candies. i skipped my first class coz it's too late to come. an hour as gone. so i went to cafe. today i met lot of people which was either my friends or 'friends'. it was nice to meet them. i meant my friends. and i met him too. with another girl. wow you really impressed me. change a girl like changing shirts. amazing! today blair waldorf, tomorrow serena ven der woodsen, next maybe jenny humphrey or vanessa abraham. *seriously i'm watching too many gossip girl. but seriously? i really hope that you'll stop playing and start being serious. life is not a game dear. sweetheart, darling, baby is not something that you can call all girl's with. especially not someone you call 'friend'. instead of giving false hopes try to be a faithful person. and by mean faithful is to be with only one girl at a time. i don't really know if you can do it. but i'm done believing for a while now. so don't bother about me okay? so i can't stop thinking about you. about the time we've been spending together. all the memories. i'd like to flush it away but i can't if you keep coming back. someone said these 'he's coming back just to hurt you.' maybe she's right coz i seem to be invisible. you've choose to have that life. let i live mine without you in it. then at least i can put a real lit of smile on my face. please dear (;

no one there for me ;)

i have a lot of things in my mind right now. hardly sleep lately. especially last night. i wish to see what other's think, to read people's mind but yeah fairytale never comes true no matter how much you want it. i was badly hurt last couple of days. thorny words coming right to my face even from people i don't know which hurt me so much. and i've been thinking a lot lately. and just now i've been given a chance to think about it. a long couple of hours on my own in a quite place. i was asking a question but someone else answered me very 'politely'. i don't even know you. why did i do to deserve such a thorny words from you? we were both strangers. well that somehow turn out to be a good thing for me. maybe others that i know say something differently, totally the opposite one so that i wouldn't hurt hearing it. yeah that's what people do. i feel so down lately. those words were just somehow locked up in my mind taking my emotions into a dark place. i'm lost. i don't know what to think or how to react with some things anymore. i choose to ignore when it basically there in my mind. feel so down yet my tears won't just fall. the worst, i have no one to talk about it. i have my parents and brothers but i don't think it best to share things with them. and as for today, the lying part just keep piling up day by day. i don't know when it's going to stop. but i'm done believing. i'm babbling too much and i really need to put a full stop. 

oh no!

otokei?! benda yg nurul takut kn dh pn jadi knyataan. your not falling for 'that person' right? i'm praying that you won't. at least not with 'that person' please coz if you did you'll kill me! *okay hyperbola d'situ. anyway sebenar nya tgah geram dgn kakak gatal ni. kakak gatal?? spa mnusia tu?? jom tgok sini.

maklumat

nama sebenar: dirahsiakan demi keselamatan.

nama facebook: ashiyanie mizaki.

nama famous amous: kakak gatal @ 'connie'  (; 

kesalahan: perampas dan tidak mengaku bersalah.

waktu kesalahan dilakukan: diantara jam 1.00 - 2.15 pagi.

hukuman: buat teh tarik kaw untuk breakfast hari isnin 6june 2011.

lengkap detail! muahahaha. *gelak jahat. perampas! urghhh geram nya! siap la mulai skrg perang akn dlancar kn. kita tgok apa yg akan blaku nnt ehh. nite! opsss morning & sleep tight (;

skip this, just for fun!

please skip this post! it's just for fun! (;


having trouble sleeping today coz something bother my mind again. so please skip this one. i'm writing this for nothing. warn you so don't blame me if you keep on reading okay (;


what am i going to talk about anyway? things that i loikeee! or must for me.


(",) food
without even a single meals i'll get a terrible extreme headache, vomit and bla3. worse? i could even faint. (; so, the must here is;


if i grab something from mc'd i'll definitely take either
1) mc'd set no9 aka a set of original chicken with diet coke and fries
2) at least ala cart original chicken or large diet coke & fries
3) chocolate sundae cornetto
4) if i'm having fever, mc'd chicken porridge is a must!


the must for pizza would be
1) garlic bread & soup especially chicken soup
2) hawaiian pizza &  island supreme
3) pieces of honey bbq wings
4) craving most for now prawn olio spaghetti!


other than that;
- abc cool blog without pearl
- tiramisu, chocolate indulgence or cheese cake from SR
- chicken & cheese prata Hot & Roll
- next most wanted 'airjambu88'
- drinks: 'airjagung' 'airkelapa' highlight 'teh ais!'
- food: 'roti bom' 
- most of all BIG APPLE alien & cheese!


urmmm what's next? toodles! (;


i'm sick i know it but what should i do right?

pot pet pot pet (;

okay sebab bengang dgn pjlnan dri gombak ke kedah dri jam seawal 5 pgi hingga 4 ptg bru smpai ke kedah fuhh maka NurulHorvejkul pn nk mla pot pet psal bnda yg ntah apa2 ni. layan kan jela ye.

pertama! 

cuba kesan apa yg slah kt sini. tak nmpk?? ish3. ni la org2 yg time sblum dpt lesen baik pijak gajah pn tak pengsan. dh dpat asal kn boleh je kn. apa nk jdi dgn bdak2 zman skrg. budak2 ke? erkkkk. yg pasti mmg tak bertauliah kn dh ssah org lain nk parking. nanti. kan? nak bgi saman tak boleh. tak mmpu. isk3. tgok jela. next!!


kedua!!

apakah?? tak kan ni pn tak thu jugak. apa la. ni nma nya bantal! b.a.n.t.a.l BANTAL! apa yg special sgt dgn bntal ni? warna nya? bau nya? atau tali nya? tettt. bantal ni slain boleh dbuat alas kpla dia boleh mngurut dlm msa yg sma. cra nya? mudah je.

jgn malu2 tekan je button O tu nnt dia akan turn on la apa lgi kn. mka mkin nyenyak la tido yg sememang nya dh nyenyak. nextt!!!

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