for every word you say, 

another piece of my heart you take.

Day Five - Six things you wish you'd never done

i wish i never

1 - be such a bad daughter in my family. sorry sorry ^^

2 - drive negligently until someone hit me so that my dad will not worry about me driving

3 - ride a motorcycle without a license! still trauma with the corner, roundabout & similar to it

4 - send a text to my friend making things complicated for us. *but i just say hye. ;(

5 - get angry or saying harsh to anyone & everyone around me. 

6 - stay silent and not telling people what i really felt coz i've lost to many person for being so. 

Day Four - Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1 - what i wanna be in the future? i might have chosen my course but is that really who am i going to be?

2 - are my parents proud enough to have a daughter like me?

3 - someone is so lucky in life yet mine is the one to be ruin. i did something wrong is it? tell me please.

4 - who's my real friends are? the ones stay by myside now, will they be there with me forever? 

5 - my next result will it be the same? i want to change it but i like things the way they are.

6 - will 'you' ever change? don't you have the feeling of guilt at all? seriously are you even a human being coz they way you act just seems too harsh to be true.

7 - adore you a lot. in fact too much. but hey it is impossible for you to feel the same right? well, myself esteem is ~_~ 

love people around me a lot. 

nyto ^^.

Day Three - Eight ways to win your heart

1 - be yourself. tak kira la best mn pn prgai, style suma2 kriteria yg ada tp klau fake takda makna nya jugak. buang je ke laut.

2 - suka someone yg boley mix & get along well with my family & friends. klau dpt yg boley go dgn diorg heaven nya. 

3 - klau ada bnda yg tak baik yg nurul buat dia tegur. tp tegur baik2 la. klau dia sound pkai speaker time tu jugak nurul gantung dia ats pool yg ada jerung. mummy jerung!

4 - happy thap dewa klau dpt something drpd 'dia'. takda la nak minta gucci mucci tu. tak nak pn bnda2 cmtu. nak bnda yg simple je. contoh: craving sgt air jmbu 88. *sbar nurul sbar.

5 - tak pndg rupa paras, harta bnda. tp perangai dia. takda la hrpan tinggi mcm ibu nurul nak mnantu imam muda. biasa2 je janji tak menipu. as simple as that. ^^

6 - your fav is yours my fav is mine. bnda yg kita minat tak semesti nya sma tp respect minat   antara stu sma lain. sharing is caring kan? *takda kaitan.

7 - suka sgt klau dia seorg yg cemburu. bukan hyper jealousy. jeles2 cmtu je. cm comel je kan. rsa nak ketuk2 je kpla. 

8 - highlight. bukan jenis yg nak tiap2 hri jmp, msg, call bla bla bla. sgt suka jenis yg jahat2 skit. kdg2 layan kdg2 tak. sometimes so sweet sometimes a little bit playing around. happy go lucky. heaven heaven. ^^ 

first time prgi mentoring?

hari ni ada dua class. 10-12tghri & 12-2ptg. dua class je tp tak boley nak happy jugak sebab ada mentoring session pkl4. lecturer dh bg amaran maut depan2 last week 'attendance is compulsory!' sllu buat2 hilang ingatan tp sbab dia ckap dpn2 siap pndang mata ke mata smpai hri ni pn tngiang2 suara di so nak tak nak kna prgi. class pertama pedagogy. hri ada quiz. pnya la smlm bca notes dub dab dub dab skli hri ni lpas hbis jwb quiz dia ckp 'i don't wanna count your marks into the coursework mark coz the first quiz usually turn out badly.' what? time tu rsa mcm nak lri trjun je dri tgkat 5 tu. miss, sy krg tido taw bca notes tu! jntg ni mcm nak tcabut. smpai hti miss ckp cmtu kn. tacing la cmni. ^^

nextt! class sociology. discussion dgn group. okay la kn. yg lemah tu present kt depan. pastu diorg pilih priya & nurul?? time diri kt depan tu rsa cm nk pura2 pgsan je. kan best jd drma melayu kjap. suara pn tiba2 mnyembunyikan diri. time2 cmni la kn bru nk rsa gugup sgla bgai. waaaaaaa! pastu ptg prgi mentoring la apa lgi. first time spjg hmpir sthun pjalanan kt msu ni. pnya la happy miss tu nmpk muka yg tak prnah nmpk hri dia snyum semanis yg mungkin. sweet sgt! tbyg lagi senyuman dia. nsib baik tak ajk snap snap skli tdi. bak kta org 'the first time means everything!'

highlight hri ni? tadaa!

annyeong! kenal tak apa tu? tak? apa la nk jdi budak2 zmn skrg ni. ni nma nya lolipop sejenis gula2. betul ke? urmm. so sebab bnda ni segan buat presentation sblm nya trus d'lupa kn. ^^ kamsammida! rasa mcm nak guling2 tdi tp sebab org rmai sgt segan la plak. klau nurul buat msti org cm muka smpai bila2. plan nk guling2 sebab happy: cancel! wlau pn tak dpt nk telan trus tp takpa still rsa cm heaven. nnt mlm boley kan? *mentang2 la takda org bca kn. layan kan jela.

gay gay NurulHorvejkul. (;

*gay: happy.

i might have spoil everything isn't it?

i caught you looking at me. is it for real? walking ahead just seem so awkward. side to side? i'll & have spoil everything i guessed. the way i walk, talk and body language will be extremely different coz it is not just anyone, it's you! i felt like i've done things absolutely wrong & keep on thinking along my way back. i hate this feeling! i can't forget even when i made up my mind for it. so i make another plan. to pray that what i have in mind & yours are the same.so then no more heartbroken or frustration. it is easier if we can just spill everything won't we? ^^ 

ecstasy?

pgi tdi ada class critical appreciation. dlm class ni minda ktrg akn d'jana utk memahami poem2 yg complex! biasa dlm class ni sma ada nurul akn myalin je balik poem2 tu & fakta auta yg lecturer bg atau create something funny & hilarious dgn partner sblah mnyebelah. and as for today poem ktrg sgt menarik. ada stu line yg mnyebut tentang ecstasy! apa yg korg thu psal ecstasy  jom tgok sikit. 


ecstasy ni ada dua. pertama!

pill ecstasy! yg nurul thu ecstasy ni ddah. pastu kwan nurul bg thu pil ecstasy ni ada gmbar ats dia. stiap gmbar ni bg maksud yg b'beza. ada yg high habis. ada yg sebalik nya. nma lain ecstasy ni ialah MDMA. apa plak tu? MDMA ni nma pnjang saintifik dia MDMA (3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine). kesan MDMA ni mmg 'best'. MDMA boleh bg kesan pd neurochemical sistem kita. dia akan melepas kan serotonin, dopamine dan norepinephrine yg menjejaskan receptor kita mcm adrenaline & serotonin receptor. dia jugak mransang pembebasan hormone mcm prolactin, oxytocin, ACTH, DHEA (dehydropiandrosterone) dan antidiuretic hormone vasopressin yg penting utk pembebasan toksin melalui air dlm bdan. & bnyak lagi kesan2 dia. *ayt rajin. haaa cna ni bdak tesl tulis psal chemistry? adoishh pening kpla! 

kedua! 

ecstasy ni jugak sebenar nya adalah emotions! pengalaman subjektif yg menglibatkan benda yg seseorang sedari. ecstasy ni stu contoh seseorang ni tak sedar tentang keadaan atau objek yg brada d'sekitarnya. nak tahu lgi? cri la sndri kt google ke, wikipedia. tny org kt fb/twitter/formspring pn boley. pastu bg thu nurul ea? 


ketiga! 


ecstasy ni jugak boley d'samakn dgn cup cake! sebab? cup cake ada ising atau decoration ats dia. ecstasy pn ada gmbar2 ats dia. tp beza nya cup cake ni sedap & effect terhadap bdan tak teruk sgt. bnyak gula @ boley kena diabetes je klau makan bnyak sgt. diabetes? pulakk. 

ala lapar plak. dh la ptg krg bru boley mkn. isk3.

okay la. class classroom management is waiting on Disney Channel?? layan jela.

Day Two - Nine things about yourself

9 things about me? ni dh mcm fakta auta NurulHorvejkul. layan jela--

1 - nma panggilan: nurul, wani, nuyul, nuyuy or ayah, ibu, along, abg dieq suka pggil 'cik mek'. 

2 - tak tahan sejuk sgt, pnas sgt, lapar pn tak boley.

3 - tak suka org tipu! bnda lain boley lg tipu, NEVER! 

4 - cepat moody klau mngantuk. mmg kena ketuk kpla la jwb nya.

5 - suka main2 dlm class. dlm class pn main fb. cna tu? aishh. 

6 - tak suka group work. unless bdak2 stu kpla. cntoh my buddies! 

7 - suka heels, wedges. lagi tinggi lagi best! jatuh? sendiri tanggung! ^^

8 - paling rapat dgn ayah. kitorg suka bcerita, gossip pn ayah nurul layan. high speed? jap lgi dia jeling. (",)

9 - ada bntal busyuk favorite kt rumah. ssah nak tido klau bntal tu takda. sob sob.

10 - happy thap dewa klau dpt kluar dgn spupu & kwan2 yg mmg havoc hbis! 

makan, karaoke & makan?

hari ini hari ahad. today is sunday. mksd nya esk class. apa yg NurulHorvejkul buat spjg hri ahd ni sbnar nya? dduk rmah je? cm susah je nak buat tu. (; okay la sebab perut dh mnyanyi2 lgu kesha - blow mka dgn langkah yg lemah longlai nurul prgi la dpur tu. pong pang pong pang siap! smbil mulut mngunyah mta khusyuk tgok video kt youtube tcinta dgn headphone d'kpla. skli nmpk hp nurul mnyala2 minta d'angkat. dyra - 'nurul jom makan? dyra lapar la.' ? aishh cna ni? dgn efficient nya nurul telan laju2 siap. so bgerak la kitorg ke sek.7! makan a&w wlau pn plan sbnar nya nk mkn pizza. layan jela! nyum nyum! dh lma tak mkn ni. ssah dh nk cri branch dia. 

burpp! ^^ destinasi kedua? balik rumah la. cik uncit dh nk smpai dri ampg. pergi ambil uncit kjap. balik rmah dia hntr brg pastu prgi rmh nurul plak. nak tukar tudung jap ye! cik matrices gen pn jadi ikut kempunan big apple pnya psal. 

kat rumah yg tcinta

sementara tggu bas rapid. naik bas je yg mmpu. murah & bpatutan. (;

kli ni bg nurul inter-frame plak ye!  

okay nampak tak highlight dia kt sini? tak nmpak? 'bgi yg besar pnya!'

hah spa nak ambil ni? angkat tgn hayun2 300x ^^

destinasi seterus nya? sacc mall la! tmpat prtma yg kitorg serang big apple! mkan kt situ sebab takmo bawa balik kotak? layan jela. smbil mkn dgn mulut comot comot tu sempat jugak snap snap! 

makan makan & makan!

cik kiah uncit ^^ good luck exam! *motip? 

next!! karaoke! jauh sgt nak prgi ole2 sek.18 tu. sini je dh la. kitorg ambil 15 lgu je bnyak2 nnt pengsan cna? spa nk tlg tu? nnti org tu baling je kluar. ^^ maka menjerit la kitorg smpai hbis 15 lagu tu.

cuba dgr cara dia pronounce kt situ. so cute meh. satu2 mampu? *sorry la video senget. (; 

 jalan2 prgi kedai baju belek2 smpai akak tu dh jeling manja bru la ktrg gerak. sesi tambah kilo yg kedua. mc'd!! yeay bbq mc'shaker, kita dating lgi nmpk nya. tgok jam dh lewat dh ni. abg & akak kt situ pn dh geram tggu bila la ktrg nak balik. boley smbg snap snap lg tu. pdhal mta cik uncit ni dh merah mcm biji saga. 

makan, bbq mc'shaker & snap snap snap!

motip? mata dh merah sgt kata nya. *refer kpda kotak kecik.

pastu gerak balik. tp dri awl smpai hbis mmg havoc la. klah yg lain. mampu? okay nak tido esk class pgi. night and sweet dream. muah muah ^^

p/s: gmbar bnyak sgt sebab tu mostly page. ni nma nya jejak rantau teen style. simple but havoc. tak pyah nak mewah bagai. hnya remaja yg kenal erti hidup redah asalkn boley. *yg baik je taw  (;

Day One - Ten things you want to say to different people

ibu - nak makanan favorite nurul mggu depan time nurul balik ea? tak nak msak sndri, ibu msak lagi sedap. (;

ayah - ayah, nak kereta sebuah? satu je tak nak bnyak2 pn. nnti sng nak prgi campus, balik rumah kan kan?

along - awak ni kan klau keluar jln2 msti tak ajak sya kn? tak kira next week movie. 

abg dieq - bila awk nak balik rumah? spa nak belanja sya snack bnyak2 lagi? sob sob.

nad zachary - bila kita nak prgi tgok crta hntu lagi ni? pastu kna tahan dgn polis pdhal dia yg buat salah tak nk mngaku plak tu. ingat tak?

reen rhmn - uncit bila nak balik? dh tghri dah ni. awk kta smlm nak buat operasi ternak lemak uncit??

reen reanna - buka timeline asyik tweet dia je adoishh. bg dia rehat jap ea. pnat dh bb awk tu. ketuk kpla nnt. 

reen tomey - awk awk bila kita nak prgi karaoke ni? sy dh melalak non-stop cian ank2 sy kt rumah kna dgr. 

farhah fareeza - lain kli i pot pet pot pet jgn marah ye. klau tak tak cerah ceria la kan? kita kna happening. *tiba2.

mystery guy - suka sgt kat awk. tak kisah la annoying mna pn, tak handsome ke apa skli pn still tak boley lupa kn. nak buat cna ni? umphh. ^^

10 things about you in 10 days

Day One - Ten things you want to say to different people

Day Two - Nine things about yourself

Day Three - Eight ways to win your heart

Day Four - Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day Five - Six things you wish you'd never done

Day Six - Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven - Four turn offs

Day Eight - Three turn ons

Day Nine - Two smileys that describe your life right now

Day Ten - One confession

operasi menternak lemak berjaya ^^

yeay operasi menternak lemak kli ke brpa berjaya! mampu? hahaha. rempit style lgi taw. pkl6 bru nk b'siap. pastu tggu dyra ni bsiap plak 6.30 jgak la bru kitorg gerak. dia kta 'takpa azan pkl 7.30' ?? mmg betul la m.cik ni. aishh. dgn pntas & efficient nya kitorg rempit ke SACC mall! destinasi pertama, msti la big apple! tp sedey hri ni takda cheese. npa takda?? cm nk ketuk je kpla abg tu tdi. 

satu dh hilang dyra telan td. (;

takpa la janji alien ada. klau takda tdi mmg prgi tmpat lain smpai jmp cheese & alien. hahaha. next stop ktrg prgi mc'd utk date dgn bbq mc'shaker plak. 

tgh mkan ni. nyum nyum.

yeay hajat hri ni dua2 tercapai. alhamdulillah! bruppp! esok nk apa plak ea? haaa lupa plak cool blog. asyik lpa je. bru 19 cna ni? anyway, thanks bnyak2 dyra murtaza! syg awk lebih la. hahaha. wlaupn sy jhat dgn awk, awk lyan je kn. sob sob. nak tgok movie plak, bubye!

operasi ternak lemak fav. food NurulHorvejkul. 

mknn biasa2 je okay? ^^

hri sabtu yg bohsan!

tik tok tik tok bln july dah nk dtg! bererti bbq mc'shaker akn mghilangkn dirinya lgi. fionee awk. asyik nak hilang je. majuk nnt bru thu. humphhh! tp hri ni a.k.a ptg krg sya dgn cik bff dyra akn prgi ke big apple & mc'd skli utk date b'sma mc'shaker! excited ni. yela ank2 nurul suma kluar tggal kn nurul sorg2 kt rmah ni. sob sob. okay b'balik kpda topik hri ni. sya bosan sgt2! fb twitter tak mmpu mbantu hilang kn kbosanan. blog? urmm kita tgok la cna. maka dgn pntas & efficient nya nurul pn stalker la blog kwn2 yg sya follow - dashboard bnyak jugak yg update. yg b'abad lma tak update pn nmpk nya ada stu post bru. dlm bnyak2 tjmpa la stu bnda yg mnrik tp dh nurul lupa kn sebab tak mmpu nak buat. tadaa! 

Parkour / Free Running!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0x-VUEJWwn0

**video tak boley nak download. error apa bnda ntah. ish pnat je tggu. urghhh! 

seronok kan? yg ni bru thrill! pnjat sna pnjat sini. lompat sna lompat sinun. tp malang nya nurul tak mmpu nk buat ats mslah jantung yg critical. sob sob. (; so tgok pn jadi la! video ni psal diorg practise parkour dgn jaya nya. yg real life & dangerous + extreme pnya? sila search di youtube! biasa ni bdak2 zmn skrg thu nganga mulut je. nak join parkour ni kna ada stamina yg tinggi. style msti ada! klau stkat jogging dua tiga kilometer tu tak mmpu nshat nurul, lupa kan jela. nak jugak? training hbis2an. tgok org buat mmg best. sndri? waaaa cm nk nanges je. klau la mmpu. dah apa awk mrepek ni Horvejkul? bubye nak siap ke big apple! rempit style! 

till then bubye & take care shadows! 

i like you too much to be true. 

and keep on bumping to you making me smile all day long. even till i close my eyes. see the impact? 

so for my own good and your own comfort and my buddies i have to forget you. 

coz happy ending don't usually happen. 

but keep bumping into you don't help me out at all. 

i'm trying to forget you here. 

please just be a little bit nicer to me will you?

'let it be your spirit burner every single day'  but seriously this feeling making me crazy.

fakta auta NurulHorvejkul.

NurulHorvejkul 

okay hri ni sbab sy tgh boring thap dewa sy nk mrepek. nasihat nurul, sila abaikan post ini! 

fakta auta ! (perangai) 

^^nurul ni cpat marah.*fham ayt tu btul2.  tapi (ada tapi okay) sya cepat lupa.

kes yg sllu tjdi lpas b'gaduh2 mnja nurul akn prgi mn2 utk sesaat jap lgi tgur mcm takda apa. so, jom gaduh tarik2 rmbut ke? 

^^suka bg ayt yg sentap. lbih baik drpd org yg talam takda muka kn?

ayt agk sentap. tpi utk gurau je. nurul thu ada yg trsa but that's me and i didn't meant to hurt you. jgn marah okay. my buddies know me well & diorg tak kisah pn kan? yeke? err.

^^sgt2 kuat makan lgi2 bnda yg extra manis, masin. masam tidak! 

kuat mkan a.k.a mkn bnyak kli. bkn skli mkn bnyk2. tp boleh d'terbalik kn ikt situasi tertentu. & boley jadi dua2 skli klau bab2 fav food. 

ang memang smpai stu kotak mee sedap ang tibai. - ara herukomi sako 

^^tak minat realiti show.

akademi fantasia, mentor, maharaja lawak apa bnda tu suma sila jgn tny sya! clueless. dpt update pn mlalui fb or twitter. blank, pending etc etc.

^^suka karaoke d'mna shja bila2 msa jua. ??

setiap saat yg tluang sya akn melalak. lagi2 dlm krta. tak caya? cuba tny ayah, ibu, along & abg dieq. tak lupa my buddies kt msu and anak2 sya 5org kt perdana ni. betul tak betul. nasib baik la diorg ni mlyan je. mnahan tlnga dgr suara yg 'merdu' sgt2. timekacih! (;

^^suka masak tp malas masak? 

faham tak? ke tak faham? buat2 fham jela. nexttt!

lagi2 apa lgi ang nak kta nurul? - kakak gatal

^^bw krta msti laju. paling rndah speed 100 jln biasa. *en.polis buat2 tak nmpk jela ye.

knp org bg krta tu speed smpai 180++ klau dia nk sruh bw 60, 80 je kan? dia suruh press smpai hbis so press jela. tp klau abg hensem tahan pndai2 la. duit raya free la jwb nya.

^^tak terel bw moto tp dh mrata2 smpai.

lately ni lgi la. hbis suma tempat merempit je kje nya. mampu? org pndang buat tak fham je. muka maintain innocent. yeke? *pang skit. best rempit ni cuma dh ada bad history so tak boley la bw laju sgt nnt b'ulang lgi cna? marah ayah nnti kn kan. (;

reen lagi terel mrempit pkai heels lagi! - reen uncit@ kiah ^^

^^cepat trsa mrasa sng kata sensitip la. *pang!

agak la kn. org tgh ckp psal spa2 ntah jap lgi dia jdi feeling t'lebih. aishh apa nk jdi NurulHorvejkul ni. sigh sigh. sentap, mrajuk, tacing, pastu putus kawan 5minit. opss! (; tp takat tu jela jap lgi lupa. muda2 dah problem ni cna?

aish ni yg nak sentap ni? ekeke - reen tomey

^^habit bjaga smpai pagi lpas tu zzzZZzzz tak ingt dunia. 

hobby pling best bjga mlm smpai pagi pas subuh. motip? time cmni layan tgok movie best sbab org suma tido. klau tgok crta hntu mremang tengkuk, jeling sblah ada, ada... ada org tido la. 

omg nurul pjg nya. class kau mariah! - reenreanna

^^suka tgok movie. wayang? bowling? jom jom.

suka sgt2 tgok movie. spa tak kan? lagi2 movie korea yg comey tomey tu. *angguk2. tgok wyg kdg2 je dgn abg2 yg hensem ehem! along, bw sya prgi tgok movie ea dh lma awk tak bw. puji pn dh ni. abg dieq? urmm blnja mkn dah la. (; bowling? suka main tp dh lma tak prgi. skill yg teruk mkin teruk tp still boley baling bola msuk lane wlau pn longkang je. ala, jnji tak pergi blkg okay la tu. 

^^tak suka lagu 'lemau' & jiwang karat.

lagu seprti 'tetttt' dan 'tetttt'. tp lgu jiwang lyan jugak. bkn jiwang karat! karat t'lebih ni takmo lah! *istilah jiwang, jiwang karat ni lain skit.

^^paling paling benci org tny soalan yg sma b'ulang2 kali!

bab2 ni mmg cpat je nk mngelegak. lagi2 time bulan mngambang. dh tny skli nurul dh jwb pn jgn la tnya lgi. lma jdi geram + mnyampah suma ada! pastu bila nurul dh btukar jdi the hulk mula la tarik muncung 14. layan pulak sya awk pnya muncung tu. sy pn ada lah! rsa nya suma org pn tak suka org tny bnda yg sma b'ulang2 kli kan? spa yg tak cba crta skit.

lagi?!! 

ni yg akan jadi bila sy pot pet pot pet kat campus

blewkk. *dgn muka innocent nak kna pang dia. hemoh hemoh - farhah fareeza 

dia tak nak layan! 

toodles !

"when we like someone, first thing to do is to make sure that we didn't hope for anything more than just a friend. think that the one that you like already belong to someone else so that you can control your feeling of liking that person  from evolve to affection and love." 

hello pack classes, assignments, quizzes, and later on exam?

sem2 bru je start last week tp rsa sgt2 penat! ^^ keep on smiling girl! dpt jdual yg boley d'trma la jgak drpd bdak2 ni yg mmg ada class 6-8mlm, 8-10mlm. tahniah! *sila baca sebaik mungkin. lecturer pn asyik bg assignment tp nurul dh mula rsa penat nak buat. sigh sigh. see? maka btmbah la uban ats kpla ni scra tak sngaja. pling lemah bila lecturer bg soalan msti suruh jwab kuat2 bg stu class dgr. sya segan la nk jwab kuat whai lecturer yg tcinta. segan! motip? urm sbab jwpn ntah ppa je, speaking hbis ttup muka jwb nya. lagi2? rmai sgt student drpd cohort lain tu. sedey la cmni. tak nak dtg class lah! *minta2 along & abg dieq tak bca. (; & ats sebab2 mcm ni la emosi dlm dua minggu ni naik turun naik turun. jumpa 'kawan' & pling suka sllu jmpa kawan. maka jdi nya kjap senyum kjap marah kjap ketawa kjap lagi jeling jeling tajam. skrg? mmg rsa mcm nk pndah tmpt study lain. berat mata mmndag berat lgi bhu yg memikul kan? biar nurul & my buddies je yg fham okay? 

p/s: mncari partner karaoke weekend ni. anyone?? (;

NurulHorvejkul^^

balik balik shah alam straight keluar mampu??

jejak kaki kt rumah je housemate nurul ckp 'nurul, sya mngidam big apple la. :( sob sob.' jdi kitorg pn gerak la prgi SACC mall! marvelous! mmg mngidam betul nak mkn big apple maklum la dua minggu cuti. ayah kta allowance dh bgi bnyk sgt. cuti henti kn kjap. sob sob. *sumpah takda kaitan. tadaa! 

jeles tak jeles tak? sedap! hahaha. cm budak2 je. lpas tu nurul gerak tllu plak kt mc'd. haus plak. cmn ni?? singgah la mc'd kjap skli thu tak ada apa kt sna?? bbq mc'shaker!! 

highlight dua bbq mc'shaker kt situ. myb akak yg kerja tu thu nurul suka sgt sgt sgt kt bbq mc'shaker tu jdi dia pn bg la dua. kamsammida! lain kli bg lgi ye! dgn pntas & efficient nya kitorg gerak prgi Sate Hj.Samuri. kwn nurul ni mngidam layan kn je. nnt kempunan spa nk jwab? tp nurul mkn mc'd kt situ. hahaha. maaf la ye sya klau nmpk bnda ni yg lain dh hilang dri mata. burppp! 

ni dah boley lwan cik epal dlm proses mnternak lemak ni. (; okay time to go back & habis kn big apple yg t'chenta tu. bye! 

hri ahad pnya crta daa! 

NurulHorvejkul ^^

'What do I do? What do I say? How do I say that for the first time this heart is beating for someone, breathing someone's name, for the first time this heart has loved someone.'

from Kal Ho Naa Ho (;

i'm everything i never wanted to be (;

*this picture got nothing to do with this post okay.

randomly this june i've been so out of mood, no appetite that's so serious i have to make new holes to my belt. how sad is that? growing up i've loose so many part of myself along the way and turn to be someone i'm not really proud with. so bad like an alien! *credit to kiah uncit (; my behavior, words i speak, attitude everything's just not something someone would be proud of. i wish to change, i really do. someone please hold my hands so i can be strong enough to do so? i'm glad i have friends all around me. that help me makes me feel less lonely. yeah feel so down at this moment i felt so alone. and someone seem to be a backstabber. i've lost everything on my life, and yet you still want to take away the last piece that didn't even sure belongs to me? well one thing to remember babe. what goes around comes around. eventhough i wouldn't be the one to do the same someone will. 

life please be nicer to me. just a little is that so much to ask?

a day of totally 'down' mood!

i've been through a lot of thing today. the first day of a new second long semester. i sleep pretty late last night but i've to wake up early today which was so tiring? my fault i know. went to msu for registration with my mentor but somehow it turned out my paper wasn't there and i have to pay fine. what? not that easy. i argued it back with admin department. guess what i win! yeay! *like a kid receiving candies. i skipped my first class coz it's too late to come. an hour as gone. so i went to cafe. today i met lot of people which was either my friends or 'friends'. it was nice to meet them. i meant my friends. and i met him too. with another girl. wow you really impressed me. change a girl like changing shirts. amazing! today blair waldorf, tomorrow serena ven der woodsen, next maybe jenny humphrey or vanessa abraham. *seriously i'm watching too many gossip girl. but seriously? i really hope that you'll stop playing and start being serious. life is not a game dear. sweetheart, darling, baby is not something that you can call all girl's with. especially not someone you call 'friend'. instead of giving false hopes try to be a faithful person. and by mean faithful is to be with only one girl at a time. i don't really know if you can do it. but i'm done believing for a while now. so don't bother about me okay? so i can't stop thinking about you. about the time we've been spending together. all the memories. i'd like to flush it away but i can't if you keep coming back. someone said these 'he's coming back just to hurt you.' maybe she's right coz i seem to be invisible. you've choose to have that life. let i live mine without you in it. then at least i can put a real lit of smile on my face. please dear (;