i don't really know why. it's happening today. out of many days in a year it happened today. i was watching a movie ealier with my dad. Avillion High. kind of a romantic story. about how the story of King Arthur gets back to our modern world with different person. i was looking for my King Arthur but at the end i get hurt. he wasn't the one i expected to be.
u might think that i'm crazy. one of the question playing around in your head would be why on earth would this girl babling about a movie? easy. because then i realise that my life kind of related to my first paragraph above.
i'm kind of closed with someone. i don't know maybe since early of january. i hardly remember. he ask for a shot but i say that i don't really know him just yet. so let the time leads the way. and he agreed to it. we get to know each other. and for sure question like am i really is important to you comes out from him. to say the truth, i don't really know. a part of me say yes, he is important to me. or else why would i accompany him till morning, not having enough sleep myself, not to say headache and others that come along with the package. so he is important. but i can never say words like i miss you and same things as stated. so i guess he wasn't really important to me.or i am being too egoistic. which i have no answer to it. yet i found out that he's having tons of girls around him. i shall say a lot. if i forgot to wake him up there shall be no worries. the girls will do their tasks brilliantly even way much better than i did. not to mention about pretty and HOT girls pictures in his handphone. so what do you expect as an answer from me? a yes? i'm surely i can't see any hands up if i throw out the question to the others.
and this other guy whom just called me last week just because we met a few days before and i did even say hi to him when he himself didn't make the effort to do so. my last communication with him as far as i can remember wasn't that good so i expect nothing through the meet. and today he called me again. for what? just to say that he actually miss my voice. and he even say it out loud at a web page that he mean so. then turn it into a joke of coz. he's even willing to online which is so not him because he usualy sleeps early. to say for the record i really like this guy before that thing i mentioned happened. really really liked him for more than a year. i never liked a guy for that long. and he's the one who makes the effort for us to bond like we do now which used to make me feel so happy. but now i don't know.
is it just me or i don't like guys anymore?
but i don't like girls too in other perspective. so,what is it actually?
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